she loves you.
so i am currently sitting on a beach chair by the pool in 90 degree weather on the most beautiful day i can remember. so…why am i unhappy? could it be the sunburn that courses down my legs and back? could it be the current hunger pains shooting in my stomach? or is it another kind of pain, a love pain, perhaps i’m lovesick. yep, i’m going to stick with that.
florida has been one of the most amazing weeks of my life, laying by the beach and running around disney only to come back and soak my sore and swollen feet. however happy i may have been with my current setting, all i could think of was what could make this better? you obviously.
the whole time i was here i kept checking my phone every thirty minutes to see if you had texted me. it’s awful how dependent i became on technology this week, but i needed to talk to you. i wanted to be with you so badly. i don’t know what i would have done if i couldn’t talk to you while i was away. it’s hard enough being sixty miles away, now i was forced to imagine a thousand miles away. the only thing that kept me going this week was knowing that within a couple days, we would once again be reunited!
i haven’t stopped thinking of that moment since the second i drove away from you on the last day of school. i dreamed of it, i imagined it, and i wished it; that most amazing moment when we would once again be together. i imagined you picking me up in your arms, holding me forever, never to let me go.
i couldn’t help but to imagine the kiss that we would share when we got the chance. i have never been so excited for something in my entire life. i swear, this is the moment, as awful of circumstances that would accompany it, that i have been waiting for. i’ve been waiting to fall in love with someone as perfect as you, feel the pain of missing you, and then to feel the joy of being with you once again. it feels so good to be in your arms and to have you hold me, to know that you feel the same about me as i do for you. happy eight months bebe, they have been the best of my entire life. and it’s all thanks to you!
i can’t wait for that special moment when we are finally together once again.
