a love like this.
ya know, it actually hurts right now. not the migraine pulsing through my head, also not the hunger pains due to the fact that i haven’t eaten in twenty-four hours; but it hurts me to know that i have to go so many days without seeing you.
seeing quin again brought up feelings in me that i barely remembered i could feel. but do you know what? those feelings were about you. truth be told, i had fallen for quin hard (probably something you don’t want to know). what i felt for him was something i thought was love. but remembering the way i felt about him, now just makes me laugh. being with him made me only fall in love with you harder. i realized that what we have is different; stronger than love. and so much better.
before i was actually ever in love with anyone, i thought that love was amazing, incredible, and breath-taking. but i’ve realized now that it’s so much more. with you i know that i feel more than love. i feel a relationship, comfort, understanding, security, passion, friendship, companionship, trust, and heat. our love is so much more than i ever thought it could be. i’ve honestly never been happier in my entire life.
coming into college, i honestly wished for a relationship. i would see everyone walking around school, holding someone’s hand; they had someone to fool around with. before meeting you, i wanted a boyfriend but never was looking for the relationship that came along with it. i never knew what it was like to feel vulnerable towards another person. and with you i feel so much more. i know i can be myself with you, i can trust you. the way you make me feel is unexplainable. i swear, no one has ever felt love like this, a love like ours.
loving you is the best thing that has ever happened to me. i’m crying now.
from my right eye, first.
