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keeping tabs on katherine has allowed me to stumble across an interesting tumblr. and i want you to look at it. “therulesofagentleman.tumblr.com”
there are exactly 226 rules on that that a man should follow that would make a girl weak at her knees. i know you expect this from me, but i counted how many of those rules i think that you actually follow. needless to say “good grammar is sexy” happens to be one that i skipped past as i was counting. however there are some that i passed that made me smile. realizing that i take for granted all the wonderful things you do for me.
every single ‘good morning’ text follows with ‘beautiful.’ i know i expect it every single morning but i’m not sure if you realize how much that simple gesture means to me. you call me beautiful plenty of times each day, but that’s the only one that matters to me for some reason.
it’s the things like that that made me choose you. i didn’t settle for you, i chose you.
do you know how initially when we first started dating how i said i hated the gushy, tacky, and wonderfully cliche things that you did and said to me? yeah i decided that i lied. when we first started dating you did some of the most amazing things for me that i turned my nose up at. but honestly, i miss them. i miss all of the wonderfully romantic things you did for me. those things made you seem so manly and strong.
last night as i was driving home from work, i saw a couple walking down the road and guy in love was carrying his girl on his back and had her shoes in his hand. it made me cry. you know how i never cry, right? i think before i met you i used to cry three times a year. i would cry because i got punched in the face or lost someone special to me. but now that i’m with you i’m crying all the time.
i’m sure you understand why though.
i don’t really understand why i need all of those cliche things from you. i know you’re perfect just the way you are and you about as close to perfect as a person can be. but some of those rules that i passed on the tumblr kinda made me sad. one in particular stood out to me, “never give her a reason to think that she’s the man in the relationship.” we’ve been over that before and i love how sensitive you are, but obviously i’m going to wish that sometimes you were a little more hard and edgy.
i don’t know. this whole being away from you thing has made me so confused. every second that i’m ever with you, i feel like i’m a princess. i feel like i’m living the perfect life with my perfect guy. so why am i expecting more from you?
you’re my knight in shining armor. you make me happier than anything ever in my entire life. i thought i was happy where i was before i met you, but to justify myself, i didn’t know what life was like with you in my life.
want to know what gets me through the day? thinking about you. obviously. but i think about things specific. i think about the way you dress and how well you do it. how you always look so perfect. i think about how much i love it when your hair looks messy. i think about the way you smell as i hug you and how strong you feel as you hold me. it’s the things like that that make me know i’ll be okay without you this summer. thanks for looking so damn stunning every time i see you.
