i like this story.
it’s not a fairy tale love. although that’s not a problem for me considering i’m not a hopeless romantic, like yourself. i didn’t know what to expect once we started. something new, something exciting perhaps? it’s hard to say what i was expecting. i had no idea what i was getting myself into.
i’m watching the notebook, the perfect love story. there are so many parts in that movie that remind me of you. not because i thought that was something you would do. not because it was something you’ve done. it was because it made me realize that you would do anything for me. that scares me.
noah calhoun is my dream guy. he’s man in all the right places. and he’s pretty damn gorgeous. i’ve realized he’s a lot like you. i can’t quite place my thoughts on this one. i don’t know why he reminds me so much of you. i’m not going to tell you the comparisons between the two of you because that’s not fair.
and i’ve realized that ally is a lot like me. funny thing is, her dream house is a big white house, blue shutters, and a wrap around porch where they can have their breakfast and sit and watch the sunset. that’s what it is. but the beginning of their relationship is what reminds me the most of us.
noah’s first glimpse of ally was what attracted him to her the most. she was a friend of a friend. he didn’t even know her yet but knew that she was the woman he was going to fall in love with. at first she wasn’t into him at all, kind of sucked into being with him. but once he got her, he never let her go.
hanging from the ferris wheel, he forced her to go out with him. he took the risks and did whatever he could to get what he wanted. and he wanted her. you never took risks for me? i know you would if you had to. but you never took the unnecessary risks just to make sure you never lose me. but the thing is, i know you would. i know you would do anything for me.
but that scares me. you’ll do anything for me, but its because of that, that you don’t stand up for yourself when you’re around me. if i say no, that’s it and you take it. you never fight for yourself because you’re so madly in love with me. you don’t understand how much that hurts me. steven, i could walk all over you and you would take it. why don’t we ever fight? i know that’s why. don’t you know that fighting has to happen? because if we leave everything all bottled up then when it spills… i’m not saying that i want to live every day hating you on the outside. i don’t want to walk around, slapping you and pushing you around. but i tell all my friends that we’ve never been in a real fight and they look at me, not with impressed eyes, but confused and concerned eyes. all of my friend’s boyfriends have made them cry. they have hated each other for a day. they have been in those compromising positions that almost break them. but their relationships, i feel, are stronger than ours because of it. now don’t go walking around, trying to start fights. because that’s not what it’s about. but when you’re mad, get mad. fight with me. i know it wont be easy.
“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s gonna be really hard. We’re gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day.”
my favorite quote from the movie. it helps put this summer into perspective for you, doesn’t it? don’t you realize that’s why we have to fight? we have to yell and we have to scream. we need to be close to break-ups. we need conflict because without it, it’s just too easy. i need to almost lose you. i need to almost lose you. i need to almost lose you. no matter how many times it’s said, the pain in the truth is what hurts the most. i don’t want to almost lose you. but it’s exactly that, that helps me appreciate what we have. without almost losing you, i can’t appreciate that i have you. i can’t realize how lucky i am to be with you.
i know you’ll do anything for me, so i need you do do this for me. i need you to fight with me. to stand up for yourself and get be honest with me. if you’re mad, tell me. if you’re sad, tell me. if you hate me, tell me.
noah is so much like you, in so many ways. he’s too good of a man. he’s too good to ally and she doesn’t deserve him. it’s hard to realize that i don’t deserve you. i’m not as good to you as you are to me. but i’ll fight for you. and i know you’ll do the same.
it’s hard to place my thoughts right now. i don’t know what this post was supposed to be about. initially it was going to compare us to the notebook, to show you that our love can last like their’s. it can make miracles. but this post, this movie, has helped me realize so much more. that we will cross hard times, and we will even be lucky enough to have months that are perfect. but it’s how we get through those times, both the good and the bad, that helps strengthen our relationship. it shows me that what we have, is real.
